okay guys so i never lost the weight that i gained like… last christmas, right? it was only like a few pounds which escalated to five by this summer which doesn’t seem terrible but it’s kind of a lot for someone who’s kind of little to begin with.
well, then i went on the cruise and to paris and i could TELL while i was there that i’d gained weight. honestly i was expecting to come back like 10 pounds heavier but in reaility i only gained about three pounds so i didn’t feel as bad.
but that means i’m like eight pounds up from where i want to be. so i’ve been working out all week and i’ve been working out SUPER hard but i keep indulging on food because a.) it’s my favorite thing ever and like the best part of my day no lie because i’m really sad like that and b.) i really missed all of these foods while i was in europe for like seven weeks. so my weight keeps fluctuating. like, i went down three pounds and i keep gaining it and losing it depending on what i eat so this morning i’m like seven/eight pounds again from where i want to be.
BUT OKAY. here is the dilemma. today i really fucking wanted to make these butterbeer cupcakes that i saw on tumblr yesterday (recipe here: http://www.pastryaffair.com/blog/2011/7/14/butterbeer-cupcakes.html sweet baby jesus don’t they look good) but i know they probably have like a million calories in them and i might be eating them for days and i’ll gain even more weight but SO GOOD.
originally i’d told myself i’d officially start eating better next week, giving myself a full week (and an extra weekend) to eat all of the american food i want, but i’m not sure i will actually follow that rule. but maybe. i can be good about that stuff when i put my mind to it. so ANYWAY, i’m leaving you guys to decide while i’m at the gym. should i make the cupcakes or not?!?! HALP.